The Best First Date
The sweetest video you will ever watch. This literally brought tears to my eyes. I’m so grateful for my special time with my Dad on weekends. We make it a priority to get coffee and catch up. My future husband has big shoes to fill.
Kayla Justinn Howard~ I hate that you only got to experience about a year of this. I hate that these kinds of experiences were taken from you. I understand that your mom thought she was protecting you but unfortunately by protecting you she deprived your daddy and you of the relationship you both deserved. Kayla. I don’t blame your mom at all and your dad doesn’t either.but we are supposed to learn from the mistakes of our parents. Learn from the pain you went through not having your dad there. Learn from your mom’s mistake, she is human and so is your dad. They both made mistakes. But God brought you back into your dad’s life so you can both heal and have the relationship He wants you to have. Go with your heart, go with what God tries to show you. That mistakes are made but can always be fixed. I wish for you to know the dad you have and not the dad you have grown to think you have. You have a very smart, sweet, kindhearted, stubborn, silly, hard-working father who cherishes Family above anything else. You are his sweet baby girl that changed his world forever, all you have to do is allow yourself to go forward with caution if you deem necessary and with an open heart and mind. God opens these doors for you and it breaks His heart to see you not go through them. You add trials and heart-break to your life when you refuse to go in the direction He leads you. But, ok, even if you leave God out of it (which we should never do) but IF you did, what are the chances that you would find us after 13 years of us not being able to find you? How many people in this earth have lousy parents who just assume drop them like a bad habit than drop everything to have them back in their lives? This world can totally suck but if we grab a hold of a good thing and hold on tight no matter what anyone else says or thinks then we will be much happier. Grab this chance given to you with both hands and see where it leads you. Bringing God back into the equation, He will not lead you where He can not protect you. He has His arms around you and will not forsake you. He has given you not only your daddy back but also 2 sisters, 2 brothers and a Nana that has missed you since you were 3. He wants to enrich your life all you have to do is embrace it. Kayla, the love we have for you, the love we have for sweet little Elijah Blaine, even though he is going on 3 and has never looked into his grandpa’s eyes or held his hand or met his aunts and uncles, the two of you are more loved than you can imagine and all we ask is for a chance to prove to you who we are. True colors always show through and I promise ours will if you will give us the small chance we’ve wanted for the past 5 1/2 years. We have only just been here for you. you have to make the best of the time God gives you. We never know if our parents will live to be 49 (like my dad) or 109. I don’t want you to be 30 talking to your sisters and brothers about your dad trying to learn who he was because he isn’t here anymore. I don’t want you to miss anymore of each other’s lives. WE LOVE AND MISS YOU AND OUR HEARTS BREAK EVERYDAY WE DON’T GET TO HAVE YOU IN OUR LIVES. Sometimes I wonder if your mom, her gf, their daughter, your other nana and the others that get to see you and talk to you on a regular basis, I wonder if they have any idea how lucky they are to be able to do that. To have the 2 of you in their lives like they do. Do they cherish it the way we would? Do they revel in each moment with you? Do they look at you both and say “Wow, we are blessed to have our sweet Kaykay and Elijah-bug in our lives”? If they knew the pain of not experiencing that then I know they would. If they had missed you both everyday of your lives I know they would. I know God’s timing is always worth it but sometimes the pain is so overwhelming that its hard to imagine the joy overpowering it. I know it will and live for the day it does. So until then Kayla, know you are loved and thought of EVERY SINGLE DAY OF YOUR LIFE. always, your loving step-mom. <3